27 AUG 2003 - 11.29a
last night, tony asked me what i would do if he was in a car accident and would be in a coma for a really long time (potentially forever). as you can read on his diary, if i were in a coma, he would visit me daily (although now he says he wouldn't leave my side because he doesn't trust male nurses) and keep me updated on things that are important to me. however, i wish he would just pull the plug. he claims this isn't an option... but personally, if i were to get another tattoo, i would get a giant D.N.R. on my chest. pull the plug! pull the plug!!

school is going well. yesterday i was happy to see dr. atkin hasn't changed a whole lot from last semester. i swear, the rambling he did could have come straight from last semester's class (which might have been a completely unrelated class... i'm not sure, though, as the content of his rambling really hardly had anything to do with what the content of the class should have been!). i see his wife today for my social marketing class... and then i have film... and then i have organizational communication with a nice young chinese man whose first name sounds like it could be pronounced "go away."

i'm going to get ready for school now. lame.

26 AUG 2003 - 8.17a
the first day of my last semester went fairly well, i suppose. more group projects that i'm going to hate... including one that involves visiting some sort of non-profit and developing a relationship with them. oh, gross. i don't have time for that. i will hate it.

film class is interesting. we watched a movie on our first day!!! insane! once the semester is over, i will have doubled the total number of films that i've seen. or something like that. we watched most of cinema paradiso yesterday. it seems nice so far... except that it's all about a kid that loves movies. gross. we get to watch un chien andalou in another couple of weeks. i only know about that film because of the pixies song. slicing up eyeballs!

i saw paul h lots yesterday, which was swell. we had a beer on our break between classes. i also saw cool dave and we discussed radiohead, which was fun. he has the setlist on his livejournal... i will have to check that out.

my wrist is coming along. i woke up this morning able to move my arm, thanks to a new brace that i got yesterday. the previous two mornings had been god awful... tears, even. we'll see how this thing keeps working. i'd be happy to get rid of the bulky brace completely.

24 AUG 2003 - 10.30p
school starts tomorrow. last semester ever, until i decide to go back for my masters. i will go to grad school eventually, but first i must find a job that will pay for it. shyeah, right. i'll probably be 50 by the time that happens.

today was my last day at work. nothing monumental to report. i feel slightly sad. not terribly sad. it's just weird. i worked there for two and a half years... i'll miss the employee discount the most, i think... that and getting really cool artwork and jewelry and stuff for free.

radiohead was great. the show was pretty outstanding and the setlist was amazing, even if they neglected to play "just" and "talk show host." hmph. they only played one song off of amnesiac, i think, which was fine with me. they played "the bends" which was a big shock. i was happy to hear all four songs off of ok computer that i had hoped to hear. i got all swoony watching malkmus... sigh. hmm... other than that, i'm not really sure what else to add. it was a pretty amazing night... we had so much fun drinking and eating in the picnic area by the parking lot before the show. we saw some friends... funny since there were masses of people there.

i would like to say that it wasn't quite as exciting or something as it was the first time. don't get me wrong, it was great... but maybe it was just because i already had a pretty good idea of how good they are. or maybe it was because the events leading up to the show were a lot different this time (meaning no drama of sprinting across blossom parking lots, and no fighting with someone just to have the badness and ill feelings melt away as radiohead played). i had a perfect time with tony, though, and thinking back on it, i wouldn't have wanted it to be any different.

so, yeah. school tomorrow.

18 AUG 2003 - 10.45p
i'm tired. and i'm waiting for tony to call.

we had a pretty good weekend, i think. tony and i went to paul's party on saturday night, which was fun. i ran into a long lost cousin (well, not SO long lost... just from "the other side" of the family, you know?) and it turned out that tony knew bridget from the kent past. small world! the party was a good time... i wish we could have stayed until the wee hours of the morning, but i had to be up for work.

work was amusing on sunday, but it went fast. had lunch with tony. saw the horse after work. went back to tony's to begin watching our blind date dvd set. oh, what a good time that was! i so love blind date... except this blind date was different. it was uncensored which means they show boobies and stuff... a lot of boobies. if i could have made it through whatever edition of "girls gone wild" i tried to watch with tony, i could fairly compare the two... but i think the blind date dvds are more like girls gone wild than the actual tv show blind date. there were some good parts, though... but no roger lodge. BOO!

gbv pictures from newport are up at gbv.com. enjoy. i like how i "return" with this batch of pictures... so funny that i was afraid to even email pictures to rich until tony prodded me to do so. thanks, tony.

i'm tired of baseball.

16 AUG 2003 - 8.19a
back from kentucky. i'm happy to report that my right wrist survived all of our activities. it hurts, but it's not that bad.

gbv was decent. they were actually pretty right on, except the same rotation of fifty plus songs they've played for the last few shows is getting a little old. thank god, though, they did NOT play "i am a scientist." i swear, if i NEVER hear that live again, it will be too soon. i would like to add that if anybody goes to a gbv show anytime soon, please do not shout, "hey bob! HEY BOB! play 'bulldog skin'!" over and over and over in my ear. i WILL turn around and tell you to fuck off. you are NOT going to hear "bulldog skin" no matter how much you yell for it. we also heard somebody yell for "dragons awake" in kentucky... which earned the most puzzled looks from tony and myself. it is just one of those songs we cite often from the "suck period."

anyhow. the crowd at this newport show was unruly, throwing tons of shit onstage. the band continued on... playing not quite two hours, then coming back for something like a 10-song encore. i think the only real surprises (as far as the setlist goes) was hearing "baba o'riley" which we haven't heard in maybe a year or so (we forget... at least the last few shows they haven't played it). as always, i took some pictures. i'll post some (when i post atari pictures, right?) and i'll be sending some to gbv.com on monday.

gossipy things: bob's parents were there. they were cute and i have a picture of them. another item of interest: bob is wearing a wedding band. hmmm... so did he and his young bride already tie the knot?? i wonder.

the newport aquarium was a lot of fun. highlights were stingrays (all of which were safely behind glass and not allowed to be petted!) and flashlight fish. we had to go into this super dark room to see the flashlight fish... the had these crazy blinking, glowing eyes. they were too cool. might have been handy to have in a blackout or whatever.

speaking of the great blackout, we felt no effects of it at all. we were safely in kentucky by the time it happened and by the time we returned, power had been restored for quite some time.

14 AUG 2003 - 12.29a
since i am in too much pain to get comfortable in bed, i would like to exclaim, "WHAT THE FUCK WAS MODEST MOUSE THINKING WHEN THEY SOLD A SONG TO BE USED IN A MINI VAN COMMERCIAL WITH MOMS IN IT?!"

that is all.

13 AUG 2003 - 11.57p
wow. it was an exciting day, complete with a trip to the emergency room. for the first time in years, i was launched off of newt. i'll spare you the details, but i will just say that while galloping, he went one way, i went the other... i was still on him, but in the process of trying to right myself, i'm pretty sure i dug a spur into his side. he started bucking, i was unbalanced to begin with... and i was launched.

i figured newt would run back to the barn. but he didn't. he ran maybe 100 feet away and stopped and stood there. he didn't even try to graze. he just stood there. i was pretty sure i had hurt my right arm while trying to break my fall, but i didn't think it was broken. i caught my breath for a minute then sat on a jump for another minute while he just stood there, looking at me kind of puzzled. i retrieved him, got back on... jumped a few fences one-handed for good measure and began walking back to the barn.

that's when i called tony at work (my mom was out of town, so she wouldn't have done me much good)... he wanted to immediately drive to the barn and take me to the hospital. gah. nothing was broken, i assured him i was hurt, but no bones were protruding or anything. i got back to the barn and had some help putting the newt away.

i drove home and then tony left work two hours early to accompany me to the emergency room. he is the best! after a series of x-rays that confirmed i had no broken bones (aside from a possible old break or fracture or something in my elbow that i was never aware existed!), i was sent on my merry way with a bag of ice and a wrist brace.

it hurts like a mother. and my knees are both black and blue. but... in seventeen years of horses, this is the first time i've been hurt enough to go the hospital. not bad, especially since this is most likely a sprained wrist and a very sore elbow.

never fear, we will be going to kentucky tomorrow for guided by voices. i am so rock and roll.

11 AUG 2003 - 11.55a
on friday night, tony and i went out for dinner and did some shopping. mostly just playing around at the toy store... but then i spotted a christian store. it was totally like a christian border's. i made him go in. we were trying hard not to look obvious. i don't know if it worked. i wanted tony to buy me a ring that said, "true love waits" around it, but he wouldn't.

saturday was the atari party. i drank like a champ. paul h and stan showed up, which was super nice of them. the party was a lot of fun... even if drinking does seem to impair my atari playing ability. it was weird running into tony's friend rob and confirming suspicions that he is indeed the cousin of my former friend beth. what was even weirder was having rob ask, "you went to holy name?" then having a boy named mike tell me that he also went to HN and that he graduated a year after me. crazy stuff. very bizarre.

i do have lots of pictures from the party. tony has them, too. i will probably put a few random ones up on this very site later today or tomorrow. or the next day. or even the day after that. if you don't want to wait, email me... or tony.

i read that bob pollard is engaged to his girlfriend (she is younger than me!). congrats to the happy couple.

i have a back ache.

08 AUG 2003 - 9.53a
i ache! my neck, my shoulders, my back. yesterday newt and i accompanied stephanie and truman on what i would like to call an extreme trail ride. not extreme in the sense that we were jumping off cliffs or anything. nothing quite so bad as that. we went to a horse park with lots of trails somewhere in lorain county, more west than grafton. the trails were all really nice, and they made it super impossible to get lost. that was a good thing, as we only were able to keep up with truman for thirty minutes or so. when steph set off to do a two minute gallop sprint, we were left in the dust... truman is fast. newt is fast, too, but he doesn't have quite the endurance that truman has. i think newt is more of a sprinter. all in all, it was a great time. a lot of riding, but a really nice change of pace. i think newt will be really excited about his career change next year.

less than a week until guided by voices in kentucky. i am not a cheater, so i only know the new songs gbv made available ahead of time... i will be able to recgonize other new ones from hearing them live in grand rapids and akron in june... but tony and i will not be singing every word to "the best of jill hives" like some other people we know (i will not mention any name or ethnic group).

this weekend will be busy... not much going on tonight, just hanging out with tony. but i work both saturday and sunday, all day, and tony's party is on saturday night. please go to tony's party. you can play me in kaboom, and you will LOSE.

i need to eat.

06 AUG 2003 - 10.26a
i have layers in my hair... for the first time in my entire life, my hair is not all one length. i was a little nervous yesterday, but it really isn't so bad. i am still a tiny bit unsure about it, even if steph said it was super cute and tony confirmed that later on last night. we'll see... it doesn't look so hot this morning, but i guess my usual hair wasn't really great morning hair, either.

earlier this morning tony booked the hotel for our trip to newport, kentucky next week. i purchased tickets (for gbv, duh!) online. we plan on stopping at the newport aquarium the day after the show... mainly because it looks cool. i can't wait to see the sharks! i hope i get to pet a sting ray.

oh well. i should go now. another busy day for the cut-out witch!

05 AUG 2003 - 8.40a
i'm getting a haircut today. the girl that is cutting my hair is younger than me. this is a first. hopefully it will be okay.

in other news, i can't help but feel that i am totally being screwed over. something to do with radiohead tickets. i mean, if i would have known it was going to be so easy to get good seats off the w.a.s.t.e. site, i would have just bought my tickets there to begin with, instead of waiting in line at the old giant eagle ticketmaster counter. but when you have an agreement with someone... i don't know... and you think you have the rights to the best tickets out of the agreement... but then you find out that those tickets are NOT yours, NEVER were yours, and will most likely NOT be yours... it just kind of sucks and it is very easy to feel cheated. even if you do get to go to the show with someone you really want to go to the show with... you also have to keep in mind that i love this band. and i think that everybody who knows how i obsess, especially about this, will understand why i'm feeling so cheated right now. but, whatever. it's totally out of my control at this point.

i'm going to smoke a cigarette and try to calm down now. then i'll get ready for my haircut. woo.

04 AUG 2003 - 9.33a
it's monday. we're having the first meeting with the company that is building our barn today. it's pretty exciting stuff!

i had a great weekend. tony and i went to see seabiscuit on friday. i was a little nervous in the theater (it's kind of like blockbuster is for me...), but it sort of felt like going to an airport, so i was okay. tony took me to see it in some crazy huge theater so we could have good, comfortable seats and stuff.

anyhow, the film was great. we both liked the book a lot better, and felt there were a lot of things not in the movie that should have been... but at least we got to see seabiscuit sleeping and stuff. cute.

on saturday morning, marcy met us at the apartment and we all went to the lakewood art fest. it was a really good day. i ended up buying a little koi fish picture (i LOVE koi fish!) for my bathroom and a pendant that is a piece of beach glass (i LOVE beach glass jewelry!) with silver wire wrapped around it. we went to the book sale at the lakewood library following the art show... tony bought all serious books. i bought old horse books that i loved when i was a little girl... and i bought a book for tony called "my puppy is born." it's really gross.

saturday night, we made the journey to kent for the PG viewing of "midnight skater"... that film rules. for those of you on the outside of the loop that have not seen it... you're missing out. sucks to be you! we ate chinese food and it was lovely hanging out with my friends.

tony and i spent the majority of sunday doing nothing. then when we weren't doing nothing, we were with horses, or we were doing something else. it was a good day... i drove to lakewood last night to spend a little extra time with him, and i'm glad that i did.

01 AUG 2003 - 11.00a
welcome to august! forgive me for slacking on the entry posting... but i think i just needed a little break. that does not mean there was a lack of anything to write about. i have plenty to share, i just had very little desire to share it.

we saw the flaming lips last night. i can't contain my love for this band live. i was so blown away by the show last year (see: night of the flASSk)... and last night was almost as good. not quite. i don't think they played as long, and there was no battle royale. but it was still excellent and a friend of ours got to be the dancing owl! no shit! he got to the show super early and was hanging around outside of the lips' bus... and they asked him to be an animal. he had this pass that said "animal" and stuff. it was very cool, and i was super excited for him.

my dog was attacked by yellowjackets the other day. she's okay now, though... very scary. like i said to her, "we're not in brooklyn anymore!" silly dog has to learn about country things, like yellowjackets. um, i suppose we had those where i used to live... but not at dog's reach. and they weren't like the killer bees we have in medina or anything.

my sister, her husband, and their kids are all visiting from virginia. her older son is slightly over two years old. he's funny... he likes driving cars over phoebe. she is so patient and good with him. i had to hold the younger one (who is like seven or eight months or something) for a while yesterday. i kept him entertained with the milwaukee sausages that david sent me. he was really interested in italian... i think dogs only like the bratwurst.

we're going to see gbv in kentucky in a couple of weeks. that is because we are insane.