She's not sorry for her sins as long as she looks good...

28 MAR 2004 - 9.09p
What a zoo!!

You have no idea how crazy today was. I'm happy to report that Eli W. Snodgrass is home. I'm unhappy to report that Eli W. Snodgrass is the most pathetic looking thing I've ever seen. His coat is so scruffy and matted... and he is so skinny. I don't think he had a good winter.

He seems to be getting along with the gang just fine... Henry claimed Eli has his very own early on, doing anything he could to keep Lucy away from him. I think Eli was getting a little pissed off about this. He just wanted to settle in and enjoy a good meal.

It really was like a petting zoo here earlier today... soon after moving Eli home, two goats belonging to the people a few doors down went on a romp. It was one of the most entertaining afternoons in a long time.

Henry Snodgrass goes back to the Snodgrasses this week.

26 MAR 2004 - 10.36a

It finally happened this morning. There really is enough room on the Phoebe pillow for the both of them!

25 MAR 2004 - 8.17a
Today is donkey day! Or Saturday is donkey day... one or the other, but not both. Eli will be joining us either today or Saturday. I'm sure I will take lots of pictures because it is not so often that we have such a zoo here. I mean, it's always a zoo... but it's not quite always so much like a children's petting zoo, I guess. Or a Nativity scene. (Yes, Henry is still here!)

So now it looks like I'm not going to see the Pixies. This disappoints me terribly and I won't deny that it's been directly influencing my mood for the past few days. I just couldn't have done the drive... not even with another person helping out. I have no money to fly there. So my mood will just continue to rot.

New Modest Mouse comes out soon!

18 MAR 2004 - 11.20a
It's been a while since a worthwhile update.

A bunch of long stories short... I found myself traveling to Louisville, Kentucky with Tony for GBV last Friday. It was a great time and we had the honor of meeting the legendary Ryan Adams in the crowd. Woo, GBV was great... instead of heading to Bloomington, Indiana with all of the cool kids to see them the next night, we decided to pass. We spent Saturday in Louisville doing touristy things. We went to Churchill Downs and toured the Kentucky Derby Museum. I can't even express how happy I was that I got to do that... it's probably a queer horse person thing, but I think Tony enjoyed it, too. We even saw a real live retired racehorse! Swear to god!

I went and looked at a donkey before leaving for Louisville. I'm 99.9% sure he will be Henry's replacement. Henry is still with us. I can't really explain what's going on with him... but hopefully the situation will be under control sooner than later. The new donkey's name is Eli and he is bigger than Henry... and seeing as how he is a real donkey (none of this 1/2 donkey crap), he has GIANT ears and the sweetest, prettiest eyes.

The cat has been named Bobby. Or Bob. Or Robert. Not after Mr. Pollard, but after my little nephew's pronunciation of the word "baby." He says it like "BAHHHHH-bee!" BAHHHHH-bee kitty. Bobby Kitty. Bob.

I'm going to see the Pixies in Minneapolis. I guess you might have already known that. I'm so incredibly excited about it... David rules.

16 MAR 2004 - 2.42p
Phoebe and Bob. Best friends...

11 MAR 2004 - 3.11p
I'm going to see the Pixies in Minneapolis.

05 MAR 2004 - 11.54a
Poor Henry Snodgrass. An ad has been placed for Saturday's Plain Dealer offering Henry for sale. We made the decision to place the ad BEFORE the Snodgrass people finally called us back yesterday. If they do not have a suitable replacement for Henry (I hate to even think of that... I love Henry!) that we can trade for, then we'll sell him. Ralph has a friend who has a retired pony occupying a stall in their barn. They want the room, so they're looking for someone to take the pony. It could be an ideal situation... the pony is super easy to handle and as good as good can be. I'm sure he's no Henry Snodgrass, though.

Henry will go back to living outdoors all the time with the Snodgrasses. He won't have a nice stall and fresh shavings to roll in. That is his most favorite thing ever... rolling in fresh shavings. I'm going to cry now.

03 MAR 2004 - 6.22p
Dinner party tonight! I'm so excited... I made my amaretto cheesecake this morning, using the AMARETTO OF LOVE supplied by Lacey. I'm really looking forward to the feast Lacey is preparing. We're even going to eat off of GOOD DISHES. Hot dog!

I've heard there will also be wine.

Oh, I am so looking forward to finishing feeding the horses shortly. I need a hot shower in the worst way. I've had a busy day between baking this morning and picking up a load of hay early this afternoon. The tractor got stuck in the mud, so I carried quite a bit of my hay back to the barn. I am so tired, but not so tired that I will fall asleep in the middle of the dinner party.

Tomorrow is Jackie Slacker's birthday... I may be joining up with her in Lakewood. So much going on this week!

02 MAR 2004 - 7.41a
I didn't speak to Richard at all yesterday. That was the first time that's happened in a few weeks. He was sleeping or something... either that or he hates me. He called me something on Sunday... I don't want to say here what he called me... but I think Richard is filling in a lot of gaps in regards to me.

Lacey and I went grocery shopping last night to pick up last minute ingredients for the super cool dinner party. I'm making my cheesecake today... probably tonight. Lacey has to remember to bring over the amaretto this morning.

We went out for ice cream and talked about stuff last night... she said that it's completely normal for me to feel the occasional pang of sadness when I remember Tony stuff. I found something he wrote in my blog exactly one year ago today... feel free to check the archives. I'll post a bit of it here:

She saw two of my ex girlfriends last night. One of which I used to live with. The messed up thing is that the two girls she ran into are best friends. Whats even crazier is my old roommate who is my best friend {sloop tom d} was with one of the two girls also. Making things even crazier is that my other old roommate Bryan {who oddly enough I spoke with that same night} was with the one that Tom was not with. However, little old me was with both of them. That is because I am one fly dude and I do what I can to run the best friend circuit.

I can't believe how unsurprised I am regarding everything he told me on Friday. People don't change. Those boys are going to run around for the rest of their lives sleeping with all the same girls. Pretty sad.

I got a haircut yesterday! It was fun, wish I would have gone shorter but I went to a new girl and I was kind of afraid to let her have at it. I do have some fun layers, though, and new "bangs." I have to run to the store today for a new round brush and some waxy hair goo.

Never heard from the mule people yesterday. I don't know the future of Henry Snodgrass. I love him and it makes me so sad thinking about life without him. Sigh.

01 MAR 2004 - 7.28a
It's March. I can't tell you how happy that makes me. Spring is right around the corner and I'd like to imagine that with each day that passes, I'm feeling that much better about my life. I suppose it's good in theory...

But really, I'm not doing that badly. I was given the major blow by Tony the other day... and as disgusting as this is, I actually felt like I was missing him yesterday. Going through all my pictures on the computer and finding stupid ones that I didn't even know had been taken. Reality quickly finds its way back and I remember what it was really like and I'm relieved that it's over.

I have another theory... I honestly think the reason why he accused me of lying and cheating all the time was because HE was doing that to me... if HE was capable of doing that to me, he probably lived in fear that I could have done the same to him. I was squeaky clean and he just became more and more paranoid... I think that's why I was never allowed to do anything without him unless I wanted to feel like I was really doing something wrong. I don't really want to talk about this anymore.

I had a good weekend. Friday night was fun... Saturday night I was so tired after hardly any sleep on Friday. And then we had the Henry Snodgrass incident. I went to Lacey's that night and fell asleep on the couch... woke up and ate a salad. I felt bad because I was supposed to be there celebrating the launch of her internship... and I was a snoozer. Blah.

The mule people are supposed to call me today. We might take Henry back and trade for something else. It makes me so sad. I love Henry.

I want to get a lot done this week. I want to send out more resumes. I want a haircut... I need Lacey's advice on this. I must get a load of hay. I must make my cheesecake for Wednesday (I think I've decided on amaretto cheesecake!). I will most likely see the Walkmen on Friday.